So, today doesn't look like it's going to be easy at all. I have to come up with money that I don't have...and it HAS to be turned in today...yet we just don't have it.
I need to come up with $300 out of nowhere....
A small background...ever since being unemployed, I've been playing catch up. I've been behind on all my money and haven't made headway to get clear yet. Things are due before the money gets in. The rent...the power bill...all of it.
Last night the power got shut off due to non-payment. Today, a $1000 check is due to my appartment complex. The money that was supposed to go to the appartment had to go to the power...so I'm ~$280 short of being able to pay for rent. Which is NOT a good thing.
I'm hoping to find a checkmasters or something and get a cash advance on my paycheck, which comes on Saturday. But even doing that to pay rent now means next month will be all kinds of messed up too.
*sigh* I'm in a pit that doesn't end. I'm depressed due to these money issues and nothing seems to go right. I want to cry, but I can't as I'm at work. Ugh.
I'd ask for help from my friends, but I can't do that. I don't know when I'd ever be able to pay them back since I'm so busy fighting so hard with money as it is.
I can't ask for help from any of the parental units as I've done that to much already.
I feel like I'm drowning and I have no idea what I can/should do. I'm working my butt off just to try and survive and I'm failing even in that.
I miss my Diandra. I miss my Mom.