Sad. Just feeling blue. Wish everything could be made perfect, but knowing it can't.I hate standing up for what I know is right but feeling like hell for it. Wanting to sleep for like a year. Just let life happen around me and not care. Depressed. Maybe the new drug affecting me along with life? Hope not, anti-migraine drigs are supposed to be uppers. Not wanting to be me. Not knowing what I want. Feel like I'm being pushed from multiple sides, including inside. Wanting security. Wanting to feel safe. Wanting to not feel so damn lonely out here. I know I shouldn't, but I do.
'I saw you standing there. I did not know your name. And then you spoke to me. Now I'll never be the same.'
Heh, wow that's an old one from me....the rest of it is to morbid to say here. (No mom, don't worry, I'll be fine. Just depressed. Depressed does not equal stupid. (Not that I think that is what you think...):)
Just wish I could take a long time off from life and be on a vacation from everything. But I know I can't. Hell, I'd love to see England. Australia. Somewhere else.
